April 2010
Apparently, I need a new group of friends
The group I hang out with from home currently consists of 4 guys.
Guy #1: dated him for a few months, drug me along for a few more. Now I’m working on getting over him and have been fairly successful to this point. I just keep getting more and more over him as the weeks go by.
Guy #2: We have had a flirty friendship since high school. We flirt constantly, but something in me has triggered...
Why does it seem that every time I want to do something, I feel like I have to involve my mother some how? Why does it seem that every time I ask her, I end up feeling guilt tripped into doing something else? I want to go to Iowa City this weekend for my “brother’s” birthday, but I have 3 tests next week so I feel I need to study. I had originally told her that I wasn’t...
His eyes...
I know I shouldn’t even look at pictures… but his eyes… they capture my soul…
Looked through a friend’s profile pics on facebook and one picture… ONE PICTURE from like 3 years ago caught my eye. It’s the only one he’s on… the three of them at graduation… It’s like he’s looking at me… like his eyes, they stare into my...
A thought ran through my mind tonight:
He knows I can blow his mind, more than anyone else can… so why does he push me away? I mean come on.. The chemistry we had was epic, the time we spent together was perfect, and everything we did blew my mind, and his too according to him.
But right now my brain is shutting off and I think that means I need to go to bed. So I leave you all with this...
I need a life… no..
I need a TIME MACHINE!
I need to go back in time and fix this stupid crap that keeps bringing me down, that keeps making me feel like I do tonight. I’m depressed, I just want to end.. nothing’s going right. I hate this feeling, but going back in time, back to freshman year in HS would make things so much better. I could: Stop myself from dating Tony Let...
Happy The Hard Way
Quotes from Every Avenue songs that fit my mood tonight…
I’ve had enough time to figure this out, But I can’t believe that I’ve waited this long, I’ve seen the truth in another light, this is everything I never wanted to be. (Picture Perfect)
We’re caught in a landslide, we’re dirty, we’re broken, black and blue. The feeling is lost in every signal...
The truth
if you wanted the truth, the real truth, you’d come and ask me, not believe what other people tell you about me. If you want the truth all you have to do is ask and I’ll tell you that I’m over what happened between us and our friendship is more important to me than anything else between us. If you want the truth, don’t believe the rumors, the second hand stories, or the...
