June 2010
I had a dream about him last night, and it was almost amazing. Standing in the church, he almost kissed me and then i pulled away. We started talking again and then he did kiss me, and I was being stupid and pulled away again. ”Nick, I do want to be the one you want, the one who’s there for you when you need it most, I want to be there for you when you’re gone, I want to be...
Daddy’s Hands Were Soft And Kind When I Was Crying, Daddy’s Hands Were Hard As Steel When I’d Done Wrong, Daddy’s Hands Weren’t Always Gentle But I’ve Come To Understand, There Was Always Love In Daddy’s Hands. <3 Happy Father’s Day! Love you Daddy, and all the other father’s in my life :)
Every time, I think I’m over it, and every time, I realize that there is still a part of me, no matter how small, that isn’t. I’m glad he’s possibly found someone else, and every time we talk I feel fine again. But there’s always that slight pang in my heart whenever he looks me in the eyes, that always says I know it’s a very small chance, one that i know...
It’s amazing, I heard words tonight I thought I would never hear.
“Eva, I don’t know how else to say this, but I would love to have you as a daughter-in-law.”
I just kinda sat there, I had NO idea what to say. I love Toni and her whole family! And I would be honored to be a part of that family.. But Nick just left for more training, and he’ll be gone for another...
Not Sure Why...
… but even after all this time, just seeing that name sends a chill down my spine. Pretty sure I’m over everything, in fact I’m 99.9% sure that all I want is to be friends. But there’s still that .1% that keeps me holding on, that part that says this phase will pass and we will work out soon. I don’t know why, but that name is everywhere. I hear it out of one of...
I’m just not sure anymore… Nothing seems right. I’m out of high school, yet I rely on everything I’ve done IN high school to be on my application for this contest. Maybe she’s right. No… I know she’s right. I’m not in high school anymore, I’m in college. I’ve started a new part of my life, and I have nothing to show for it. She says...
I've heard it said...
… that when you stop looking for something, that is when you finally find it. If that’s the case, then that’s what I’ll do. I’ve been looking for far too long for someone, for Mr. Right. I thought Ryan was him for the longest time, and to tell the truth I still think it could be. But that’s not an option for the time being. I have been constantly searching...
